Thursday, May 3, 2007

#39 - on being social

"i'm a loner dottie, a rebel..." anyone remember what that's from? here's a hint: it's from the same movie that had the all-time scariest ghost story in the history of me crapping my pants. haha, remember, with that trucker lady... i forget her name, nicole remembers.

anyway, in the last post i wrote about going to the expo and ala moana and completely being a loner, and kinda loving it. going out by myself, walking around and going about my business very freely is kinda cool, but made me realize how non-social i can be, and how i still can have a great time doing it.

but the most important thing i noticed at the expo is that no one noticed me! how rude. you'd think that i'd be the ideal potential consumer right? 25 years old, male, steady job, soon to be homeowner, drives a honda... okay, so they don't all of that, but if i were them, i'd want to sell me something! so how come during the whole time i was there, leisurely strolling past booth after booth on either side, i only got approached by one girl. gave me a little flyer for some reggae concert. don't they want to sell me stuff? that's they whole reason they're there! what, am i not approachable or something? does this look like the face of unapproachableness? c'mon!

blah, anyway, i didn't really think about it until i left the expo, so i couldn't really experiment any to see if i could increase my approachability. but i don't think i'm really a hard person to interact with? eh? hmmm... see, and then when i AM approached, i'm so surprised by it that i act like a dope. i don't expect people to come up and say hi or whatever so i'm always caught off-guard when it does happen and i feel like an idiot when i don't interact back when someone finally does talk to me. like today after going to 24 hr. fitness i went to buy something to eat and some guy from the gym said hi, and i completely didn't expect anyone to say hi to me, especially not some random gym person, so i think i said something like "ghaa?" and walked away. what a dope. plus that's kinda rude too, so i need to stop doing doofus stuff like that.

in conclusion, i guess i have to try to be more social. i don't know how to do that... sigh.

3 comments:

Anonymous said...

Wow...quoting PWH huh? At least you're cooler than he is...i hope. Haha. Anyway, nothing wrong with wanting some alone time...but just don't make it alone ALL the time. :) Either way, you can be social...I've seen it with my own two eyes! You are pretty ding dang darn good at it too! Maybe you just need to find someone who brings that side out of you again. :) Gambatte ne!

Anonymous said...

i know exactly what you mean. sometimes i'm not very social, but sometimes i'm overly social. my non-social times are just as fun to me because i am able to entertain myself to no end. i'm actually never really bored. anyway, i just thought your blog sounded like me sometimes. as for your unapproachableness ... maybe you don't look friendly. i know i do. haha. shoots. peace.

brandizzle said...

I have become more used to talking to random people. In Portland people are always talking to you and meeting your gaze as you pass them. This took a long time to get used to but I am doing better. Also, talking to old people helps cause they all have dementia so they are talking about random weird things. I think you are very approachable though!