Sunday, May 23, 2010

#318 - my almost puppy

this is my 24 hour puppy. here's how it happened....

a couple of weeks ago we had a baby shower for one of my co-workers at work. so everyone was crowded in my office eating and talking, and my other co-worker brings in this cute little puppy! before i even had a chance to say anything, my co-worker puts him in my lap and says "look puppy, you found a new home!" she was looking to give him away, he was the last of a litter and they were trying to find a good home for him. i had been talking to my co-workers about wanting to find a puppy for about half a year, but i hadn't gotten one until this point because i didn't think that i could take very good care of a puppy right now. i had these points...

1) i'm not home enough, and i'd feel bad leaving the puppy home alone for long periods throughout the day, whether he was inside or outside the house

2) my yard's not really big enough for a dog, maybe a small dog, but i wouldn't want a small dog, i'd want a medium size dog i think

3) my house is really not dog-proof, so if i kept the puppy indoors he would totally wreck up the place, and i would want to keep puppy indoors some of the time, cause he'd be lonely outside by himself

4) when i do get a puppy, i'd think about getting two so they'd have company when i'm not around
but all those reasons fell by the wayside when i saw the cuteness of this puppy! so i made a really stupid, rash, impulsive decision to take him home!

here he is exploring my yard. poor thing, he liked it out there, but as soon as i got home i knew that i had made a mistake... what was i thinking?! i can't take care of a puppy! i felt so intensely guilty but i wanted to keep the puppy... but i knew that i couldn't give him a very good home. i'd have to leave him alone for long periods throughout the day... he cried just when i left the room so that would've been so mean to the puppy. so i made the VERY hard decision to take him back the next day.... BOOOOOO!!! i was so sad!!!!

but i had to keep telling myself it was the right decision because i'd want puppy to have a good home with a family that could take care of him well. my other co-worker's brother took him home the next day, he has a big house with a big yard and a family to take care of him so he'll be much happier there than trapped in my little townhouse. so sad though... it would have been okay if i never took him home at all, but just those 24 hours with puppy made giving him up so heartbreaking! but that's the way it goes, and it was the right decision to make in the end.

and if something good has come from this, at least i know now not to make anymore super impulsive, irresponsible decisions like that. and also, if anything this experience has given me a renewed appreciation for my parent's dog, look how cute she was when she was a puppy too!
of course, she's still cute and fun to play with so now you can bet i'll be going over to my parents' house to spend a lot more quality time with her!