#122 - toxic people

wasn't going to post today, but since brandi was waiting for my weekly american idol post i decided to do it anyway! wasn't too impressed with the performances this week... except for this one:



well, i thought he was being all super original with it, but actually this slow version of billie jean was done by some other artist and that's the version he used. so, he didn't make it all slow and fancy by himself, but that's okay because it was still a cool pick and he sings it cooly. i also liked brooke white (i love it when she's on the solo piano like that, sweet) and of course my little bro david, but that song he sang was weird and kinda creepy. anyway, in the end, i feel kinda bad for chikeze, but whatever, he can go already.

anyway, i wasn't going to post about toxic people but since i'm already doing the american idol post i'll go ahead... toxic people suck. no, wait, that's not it. in life there are toxic people and you just need to avoid them. my "boss" taught me that my first year of working because i was stuck with a VERY toxic co-worker who was bringing me down day after day and making me really hate my career choice. i was thinking, if this is what life is from now on, that sucks the big one. but you gotta see the situation for what it really is sometimes. there are, unfortunately, people in the world who for some reason or another are not out to perpetuate happiness and spread the goodness around. instead they suck it all up and bottle it away until they can steal more from someone else. these people you need to avoid. it's like a disease, you get contaminated... as much as you try to let it roll off your back, just the fact that you're telling yourself "just let it roll off your back" contaminates your thoughts, bleeds into your mind unpleasant thoughts. it's a very sad thing that some people need to thrive on spreading unpleasantness, they get themselves caught up in it and let it carry them. i feel sorry for them, i'm sure if they could take an objective look at themselves they wouldn't like what they see, but would they know how to change? would they be willing to? would they have the courage to? is there anything i can do to help these people?

unfortunately probably not. that's why you need to avoid toxic people. when someone hits you with meanness, see it as an opportunity to reaffirm your own commitment to spreading happiness. it's too bad that it takes someone else's mean actions to gain more peaceful perspective on human relations, but that's why you need to avoid them. the other day i was driving home in traffic and behind me some lady cut someone off by jumping into the lane i was in right behind me, the car who was behind me honked and the lady waved and blew extremely sarcastic kisses into the rear view mirror (first of all, why? what's the point? there's absolutely no need to do that. second of all, never blow sarcastic kisses, you just look really ugly doing it). i was in the far left lane so there was a shoulder lane on the left, so the car who was behind me before the lady cut him off sped up into the shoulder lane and re-cut her off and started doing the same thing. now we were in traffic, but my window was down and i could hear the lady yelling f-bombs from two cars away. what's the sense? you're just making yourself angrier for no good reason, and now you've gotta follow that car the whole rest of the way in traffic? then the other day i saw some guy get out of his car in the middle of the road at a traffic light, walk to the car in back of him and start yelling some crap at that guy. it makes you think, look at how much power you have just driving a car? you have the power to make someone completely put whatever plans they had on hold for two minutes so they can go absolutely out of their way to be angry and spread meanness to you. kinda makes you feel like you'd wants someone to come out and yell at you right? look what kind of control you have over another person. i think that's hilarious.

anyway, examples of toxic people. we don't need it.