#71 - things i know to be true

1. date of freedom = october 15.
halle-frickin'-lujah, i'm finally getting the ass out of this place. i swear, everywhere i turn there's someone in the way. can't escape. the house in back of us has been having pool parties every monkey-butt-lovin' day. their patio is right outside my window and i can hear every horrible word they say (including all the baby crying and scolding). my dad turns on his portable radio and dials into krater for the entire frickin' night and those two old bastards perry & price every morning. i need space. i need quiet. i need alone. i'm a loner, dottie, a rebel.

2. eliza is hot.
mornings are crap, especially when you have to wake up and go to work. to help make mornings more appealling, i've been picking up zippy's or jamba juice breakfasts on the way to work and treating myself to some morning tv (morning tv is also crap by the way, but what i found out is that mtv actually plays music videos before 8:00 am). this morning they played nickelback's "rockstar," which i've heard and liked on the radio (mainstream catchy enough to satifsy a car-ride sing-a-long) but it was my kind of video, a bunch of random dorks lip synching with a few celebrities scattered throughout. and guess who was one of the celebrities? hottness = eliza dushku. okay, so she was only on screen for probably a total of three seconds but even that was enough to make mornings right again. if you haven't seen eliza, i mean, the video, check it out here: http://www.kovideo.net/music/video/Nickelback---Rockstar/1693.html

3. i'm an idiot.
i consider myself pretty strong-willed when it comes to most things. i have my opinions and my opinions are damn good. haha, but how come with some things i'm very easily influenced. things like "buying stuff" (i get anxious in stores and, despite my most-thought-out plans, i seem to very often leave the store with stuff i didn't want after completely letting my plans flop when one part doesn't go the way i had planned). for example, today i went to restring my tennis racquet, i wanted to try out new strings so i researched them online and picked out ones i thought would be good. but when i got to the store one or two things didn't go the way i had expected and i got flustered and ended up buying different strings. i can't even explain why except to say that while it was happening i knew i should've opened my damn mouth to say something but i didn't, i just stood there like an idiot and let it all transpire beyond my control. which, in the end is not such a big deal because if i wanna be a good tennis player anyway i gotta adjust to different racquets and strings, but the point is that i'm an idiot who lets anxiety completely overtake what my brain tells me to do, or not do. and then later on i reflect on what an idiot i've been and wonder what could have made me such an idiot. i blame parents. putting so much pressure on a young kid to manage money and always make the best decisions. what's wrong with impulse buying? why can't i buy something the first time i see it instead of going back home to research and then look in the ads for months before finally going back to buy it on the 14th visit to the store? so much anxiety for such a simple task. man, they screwed me up.

4. people are fat.
wow, i just watched "the biggest loser" for the first time and while i commend those people on their effort to get themsevles healthy again, i was watching the weigh in and those fat guys were taking off their shirts and geez it's like jabba the hut here. how the hell do people get that fat? i mean, forget the psychological factors (re: bullshit... haha), physically just how does a human body get that ginormous (i apologize for the use of the word "ginormous," and yes, it is a real world, it was inducted into webster's or oxford's dictionary last year... which, although i think is very stupid to acknowledge, i am not opposed to because language is, by definition, a constantly evolving thing and therefore anything a native speaker of that language says is correct). can you imagine being only half that fat and then just watching yourself get even frickin' fatter? geez! how?! well, i actually like the show because g-damn those people need to do something about themselves. but i don't like that they get voted off one-by-one, for the sake of humanity, leave them on the show and get them healthy again! i mean, i'm not the fittest guy in the world but i try and if it ever came down to me getting like a quarter of that fat drag me off to boot camp quick! can you imagine what the world would be like if we all evolved to be that fat? holy crap. seriously though everyone, health is important, and it's something that (biologically) everyone can (and should) keep under control (not counting syndromes/diseases/etc.). i'm deadset on that. find me a girl who values fitness, she's a keeper.

5. people are one part of nature.
along the same lines of human evolution... who's to say that we're above nature? maybe we have wrestled away a bigger slice of the control pie from mother nature than some other species, but we still live on earth and still abide by nature's laws. therefore, why fight so hard against changes? first off, global warming. remember when it was called "the greenhouse effect?" haha. anyway, guess what, environments change, sure pollution and all that probably changes things a bit faster, but nature's got an aswer for it. we might not like that answer (and we may not be around for the end product of that solution), but life in some fashion will still go on. that's the whole point of "life," it adapts. lookie at those shrimps and crabs who live on the sides of those underwater volcanos that are thousands of degrees F and like tons of pounds of water pressure, yet they thrive. okay, and when the volcano gets used up they all die, but something else comes along to replace and benefit from their death. ever think of that kind of creature will come around to benefit after all the humans are gone? okay, that's kinda morbid, but what i'm saying is that us humans are kinda getting a bit over-populated in terms of "a species living on earth" so don't you think that nature would have a solution to deal with us? if any other species gets over-abundant something comes along to eat them or stomp them out or otherwise balance the scales eventually. so what's out there to stop us? well, ourselves for one. then there's viruses... some people say higher incidents of developmental disorders (like the spike in autism) or whatever could be nature's way of thinning the herd. hey, how about gay people? think about it... they don't reproduce, they're still productive members of society, and in some cases they even help the over-population issue by adopting orphans and whatever. see? so nature's at work out there, we gotta remember that we're still a part of that.

6. sleep is good.
and i need more of it. makes you a better person. or rather, a lack of sleep makes you a crappier person.