#182 - me angry?

okay guys, so i might have some hidden rage somewhere. i had another funky dream last night that was very plausible and very heated as well. here goes:

it started with me living in a dorm room (probably because we were all joking about keane's last night), but i was in there and getting ready to leave to go out somewhere and i tried to close the door but the latch wouldn't catch. i kept trying over and over but it wouldn't close all the way so i was getting angry and i found some RA or something and told them i needed a new key because mine wasn't working. so the RA was being an idiot and was telling me like, "did you try using your key?" and "did you try to slam it closed?" and i was like, "yes, dumbass" but she kept giving me guff about it and finally she got the papers to apply to get a new key but she kept telling me that a copy of the key would cost me $20, but i was telling her i didn't LOSE the key, i have the key (and i showed it to her face), it just doesn't work, so that's not me being irresponsible and i shouldn't have to pay for another key that actually works.

but she was being a snotty bitch and i got more and more angry so then i looked around and then the hallway of the dorm was kinda turning into a library so there was a bank of computers at like a circulation desk with three pale, dorky-faced teenagers working there. they were each at a computer and had earphones listening to ipod in their ears, and as i tried to talk to them (they were super dorky) they were ignoring me like they were too scared to talk to an actual human being. then i was getting madder because all i wanted was for one of them to tell me who their supervisor was so that i could complain about that RA who was giving me a hard time about the key, but none of them would talk to me.

so then i go around the back of the circulation desk into the office area because i was determined to find some supervisor to tell about that bitchy RA, then i see kyle working at one of the computers and i was like, "score, no i've got the in's" so i talk to him and he says he's living in mccully now and so i say we have to get together (he looks super dorky too, but at least he talks to me). so he tries to tell me who the supervisor is but he says it's his first few days at work so he doesn't know everyone. then i remember who my boss was when i worked at the library in college and i start dropping names and what'd y'know she was still there! so she came out and i could talk to her and i was thinking "yes, now that RA is going down." but she told me that she wasn't the supervisor and that i need to talk to amber kaufman (a volleyball player for UH), and so she comes out (she doesn't really look like her, but kinda close) and she's got a bluetooth on and looking like she's in a really serious conversation so my ex-boss and i wait for her to finish. but then she finishes and we sit down and start talking but then she starts crying and i look on her phone and it says "phone calls: 3, drama: 8" haha, like she was having some fights with her boyfriend on the phone or something. so it was now getting kinda awkward to talk about the whole key situation, but then my ex-boss says, no you have to talk about the key because she (amber kaufman) needs to learn how to be a boss and put her personal life aside for work. i thought it was pretty mean, but it was weird... and that was about the end of the dream.

so, another dream like that where i get super mad, another dream with tons of day residue, and i did not eat anything before bed (although i had a fricken' awesome dinner at gyukaku and then drank like 3 kirins, and sake bomb and then 3 more bud lights at karaoke). so perhaps that means i've got some subconscious anger festering somewhere huh? i dunno. at least i've got a week of vacation this week so i'll be able to decompress a bit, i'm thinking beach, then beach, then beach, sweet.