#82 - reconstruct

i'm in... finally. can't tell you how happy i am to finally be out there living on my own. it feels awesome to have my own place, i feel like i'm completely in charge of my life, i can take it to where it needs to be. so here we go... after all that talk ('cause up until now all it's been was talk) now i finally have the chance to start fresh... reconstruct my life into what i want it to be, no restrictions, i finally have the freedom to make my life my own.

well... no restrictions besides money, re: an enormous lack of it.

okay, so maybe i can't rush right out and get my life started completely just yet, but that's the whole point of doing this right? take my time, be patient, not have anxiety over what's still needed or how i want things to end up because the point is that i need to make it so, and i need to take the time to make it so. if everything were set up in my place and my life just how i wanted it to be already, then i would already be bored with it and i'd have nothing else to do. now i'm busy everyday trying to get things in there like the window treatments, the furniture, the cable and internet (just done this past saturday, finally i can watch monday night football), paint, and all those little things in between too. so there's a lot to do still... but not to worry because there's tons of time to do it, i just gotta be patient (sometimes that's hard for me). anyway, here are some pics of before i put everything in... here's the front door and kitchen (to the right) taken from inside the living room: here's a shot of the kitchen:
and the master bathroom:
even got a little yard, not much, but definately a plus:
so let's recap what's been happening since the move-in... well pretty much i've been moving in! but there's been some other stuff too, like... well y'know i tried to list everything done that's happened since the last post... but damn it, there's way too much stuff that i can't write down. well, suffice it to say that it's been a very humbling experience so far. not in a bad way, but like i realized that i'm very impatient and yet have an extremely hard time deciding... which makes things very difficult on myself. but it's been nice going through the rough situations that i'm sure every other guy my age has already managed to put himself into, but since i've been so sheltered i just haven't had to face those kinds of situations yet. the positive of all of that is that now i'm finding out just how well (and not so well) i can deal with situations independently, and i'm finding that i CAN handle them well, and sensibly, just i give myself pressure within my own head. oh well, i'll have to cool it with that.

anyway, here's a pic from halloween, cool huh? i had exactly ONE trick-or-treater... sad.

all in all, things are looking up and getting back on track. i'm really starting to feel like this place is my home, things are going really great with my new girl, i finally got back to 24 hr. fitness after taking about 3 weeks off during the move-in, so i feel balanced again. everything got kinda shaken up and defragmented with the relocate, but things are falling back together now and i can reconstruct it how it needs to be... just hope i can figure out just what that way is.